Journal Entry 25: Heritage Revisited

As I have said in the previous journal, I have not retained much of my heritage. I guess the idea of never giving up on something, even if giving up is the best solution has rubbed off on me, and has "given me strength". Just as the Japanese preferred death to surrendering, I guess I prefer losing to giving up. One of the elements that I feel get in my way is the view that grades are the most important thing in your lives and determine who you are as a person. This has affected how my parents saw me as a person, and is kind of annoying to have to deal with. Another element that I feel gets in my way is their obsession with what other people think about them. They always do things so that others think more highly of them, and from the perspective of the third party, it can look fake, and even maddening to watch. There isn't really any part of my heritage that I can think of off the top of my head that I can feel proud about, but I rarely feel ashamed or embarrassed about my heritage. I think annoyed more accurately describes how I feel about my heritage.